From an awakened perspective, trying to tie up all the loose ends and finally get it together is death, because it involves rejecting a lot of your basic experience. Sometimes you have a headache, and sometimes you feel 100 percent healthy. Sometimes your body tenses, and sometimes it relaxes or opens. Sometimes it is sweet, and sometimes it is bitter. The essence of life is that it's challenging. Doing this is setting ourselves up for failure, because sooner or later, we're going to have an experience we can't control: our house is going to burn down, someone we love is going to die, we're going to find out we have cancer, a brick is going to fall out of the sky and hit us on the head, somebody's going to spill tomato juice all over our white suit, or we're going to arrive at our favorite restaurant and discover that no one ordered produce and seven hundred people are coming for lunch. We are killing the moment by controlling our experience. There's no room for something to come in and interrupt all that. Seeking security or perfection, rejoicing in feeling confirmed and whole, self-contained and comfortable, is some kind of death. But from the point of view of someone who is awake, that's death. We think that if we just meditated enough or jogged enough or ate perfect food, everything would be perfect.
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